It’s been a tough week for me. Last Sunday, a whopping 7 days ago, I made dinner for my two brothers and my hubby. But since my brothers were coming over, that meant I had to clean the house too. Plus, the grocery shopping. I was a whirlwind of activity and I paid for it big time. My right arm started aching on Monday, by Tuesday, I couldn’t blog – what no blogging? I’m sore from my shoulder to my fingers, I don’t know how I’ve survived.
I’m using NT Factor and D-ribose to try and overcome this outrageous muscle fatigue. I don’t usually complain of Fibromyalgia as my primary symptom, mostly it’s fatigue. But this week has been one long trial, with extra doses of Advil to eeek through the week.
Since I can’t work a real job, I did manage to create some new websites this week, even with my difficulty typing. My new pages are all about the Holidays:
Chocolate: The Greatest Food Gift
Spectacular Outdoor Christmas Lights
Amazon’s Million Dollar Necklace
Inflatable Christmas Decorations
I really feel like I’m working when I make these pages. It’s a great forum for developing my sense of achievement and self-sufficiency when I’m stuck in a world where I can’t do much else. In my struggle to overcome my chronic fatigue, I imagine it will take me until next June to start feeling better. This illness brings with it such an uncommon sense of failure and hopelessness. These sites help me feel more normal, like I’m living some portion of a real life, instead of feeling like a shut-in or invalid.
It’s pretty rare to run across an article or web-site that discusses the psychological effects of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, it’s like we all have to work it out for ourselves. I don’t like negative thoughts or negative moods, but when the fatigue is combined with nagging constant pain, life can be difficult. My motto: Onward, Forward, To the Future. I finally have hope and now I have something to keep myself busy, even though my blogging arm is killin’ me.
The Palindrome of Bolton 