Something truly amazing has happened to me during the past 30 days. I have no craving for sugar or junk food! none! When I first starting this program, all of my friends and family were encouraging me with kind words and cheers of support. The forefront of their encouragement has been: “As long as you can stay off of sugar, you’re sure to succeed.” The underlying inference is the constant threat of sugar craving. It’s true for many of us. Most “diets” fail because sugar cravings and the sense of personal deprivation becomes overwhelming.
In the past, when I have been on diets to lose weight or improve my health in general, my sugar cravings have been outrageous. I constantly struggled with a huge sense of self-pity, the seeming loss of all the things that made me “happy”. In some specific location in my brain, my psyche was telling me that ALL of my happiness was derived from chocolate cake and soda pop. I couldn’t shake my feeling of tremendous grief over the loss of all the goodness in my life. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it’s true nonetheless. It’s amazing to recognize how our cravings can manipulate our brain, re-routing our logic pathways, subverting our impulses, directing us toward failure. Just how powerful are these yeasts and blood sugar fluctuations? Powerful enough to continually overcome any logic, any commitment, willpower, my dreams, my health. Time after time, diet after diet failed under my body’s screaming toddler-like tantrum for sugar. This endless sugar feeding cycle has kept me in a stupor for years upon years.
In the past 30 days, my mind and body have gone through an astounding transformation. I no longer have even a twinge of sugar craving. I believe that this is 100% attributable to a change in my psyche. My brain realizes that I’m not dieting : I’m detoxing, cleansing, becoming healthy. The psychology of this process is so interesting. It’s as if my focus on this treatment program is coming from a completely different place in my brain. I don’t have any sense of deprivation or denial. I have no feeling of loss or mourning. There is no food in my mind (other than lemons, oddly enough) that spells ‘happiness’. I don’t even think about food much anymore, now my body responds to the sense of hunger and the need for sustenance.
I’m absorbed in positive thoughts of improving my condition. I’m entirely focused on only those foods that afford the best nutrition while killing off the nasties that grow inside me. It’s a different consciousness altogether, a different synapse pathway, my logic is finally in control. My mind now recognizes when it’s being manipulated by my blood sugar, or the yeast crying out for carbs or sugar. Moreover, I smirk because I know that my diet is killing them off and they’re crying out in pain. They’re not gonna win this time.
I am so happy to be relieved of that constant heavy burden of cravings. That sense of “woe is me” has vanished. Happiness does exist without chocolate cake, dr. pepper and pizza. I’m filled with anticipation for the time when my days can include rigorous exercise, fishing, metal detecting on the beach and some serious housecleaning 🙂 Those days are coming, I know! I finally have hope!
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